20060528
11:51
juz got back fr duty... currently low in morale... foreseeing lots of extras coming my way, all due to my in-born carelessness. ya, it's juz an excuse to say 'in-born'... but, it's always been the case... careless. had some errors in my report, juz gonna suck whuteva it's gonna come my way man.
come to tink of it, i've nv put in effort to make things perfect. cant be bothered. poly projects, work attachment, even during jcc too. i dun remember myself being so negative when i was younger, not tt i'm vv old now, but e fact is tt when u were naive, u tend to go all out to make things right. when u start to understand tt whuteva u did wasn't much appreciated, u juz put in less effort. an excuse again? maybe... remember the first habit of the 7 habits of highly effective people: be proactive. i see myself doing tt less n less, y bother to be effective? men r competing wif each other to make things better, or is it more complicated n sophisticated. maybe i should b a farmer in some rural area man... but i think i'll b complaining bout planting crops n literally clearing shit if i'm really a farmer... hahaha. never satisfied... ya tt's human instinct.
sometimes i look at the fat cat under my blk n wonder if it was ever troubled bout being fat? it's been getting fatter n fatter fr 3 yrs ago, it's still living, happily eating whuteva it's being fed.
-redfox & drunkard lived again-
