20060623
21:43
ya... it's the recruits' book out day... look how happy they are. i helped to cover as the book out duty officer. taking e bus from sft to pasir ris interchange reminds me of what i went through 1 yr 8 mths ago. it's not the scenery or the journey, but the things u hear the recruits say. when u were new to the force, new to the system, new to booking out, everything seemed so exciting. u long for the weekends to come, and wish u dun need to return to the god forsaken island again. but it'll nv come true man. u haf cravings to eat things u dun get to eat in camp, u got lots of places u want to go, u got lots of things tt u wanted to do so much... bu u onli haf tt limited amt of time. the weekends seemed so precious. i'm so numb now, used to this mundane routine. of cos i still prefer to be out of camp, but the excitement isn't there anymore.
this shows that things gotta change. if u gonna live ur life the same way for the whole of 60 to 80 yrs... u r juz not getting a life. try new things. expose urself. life isn't bout winning or losing... it's bout gaining. gaining experience. what ever u do u wun lose this game tt'll last u for some decades. it's bout how well u play this game.
4 more mths to be operational ready. a point where my lifestyle change, at the same time there goes my income (though not much) and my responsibilities... adopting a new lifestyle i will... and it all depends on how i play my game.
-redfox & drunkard lived again-
