20060708
12:07
it seems like yesterday i was enlisted into bmtc. but in 2 mth's time i'm free from obligations. but at the same time i'll b lost. lost of wat to do. many things can happen in 2 yrs. u make many friends. u see the ugly side of pple. u experience working wif pple who cant be bothered. there r pple who were born to succeed, n there r sore losers who nv put in effort to correct themselves. it's definitely a worse scene out there in the world of reality. heard lotsa complaints fr my sister. haha... anyway... this is life. live it up with no regrets. pple can do wat they want. we can choose to be affected or not.
i was quite proactive in the past. but i was easily influenced by external factors. e type of pple i train wif made mi into wat i am. finding opportunities to slack a bit. cant b bothered at times. selfish. it's time to do some self reflection. am i doing enough? seeing my ps doing most of the work makes me wonder if i'm working. seeing my trainees standard dropping makes me think do i take ownership of them. seeing fellow colleagues not knowing wat to do makes me think am i in a position to change them. seeing my fellow pcs not in sight makes me doubt the system.
i'm affected again... maybe doing things my own way irregardless of what others think or do will make my life much easier.
my yishun kakis r oso leaving the force soon. they had more or less worked out their route of advance. i'm still prograstinating. waiting. not knowing for what. it's really time to do something man. wake up. open ur eyes. get moving.
-redfox & drunkard lived again-
