20070111
17:12
i was so lost in presentation drawing 2 (pd2). it's all about drawing and rendering. perspective drawings, marker rendering. talking bout markers, i juz spent 80.3 bucks on those fucking markers... heart pain~~~ anyway, back to being lost. i had not talen pd1, but i was expected to know all the shit fr pd1 as i'm fr sp. but my dear poly coursemates should noe tt we onli haf 1 lesson thru out the 3 yrs. dun even talk bout rendering. dat graduates were taught computer rendering. so in class, when the fat bitch ask me to consider taking pd1, i was damn demoralised. so low. way down down down down down. i felt lke juz dropping the whole course and go try my luck as a police officer. very discouraging to hear those words from tt fat bitch. but to give up design juz because of a fat bitch... not!!!
y didn't i put health and fitness management on my first choice 5 yrs ago? come to think of it, i might enjoy studying nutrition, sports and exercise more as compared to drawing drawing and drawing. maybe poly time not so much of manual drawings. it's really scary to do manual drawings.
i had such times in ocs too. feeling incompetent and demoralised. but it's quite different. it's like... helpless...
dun care lah... all sad sad stories aside... later go meet jj n black, then search for my new earring... feel like eating something good oso...
-redfox & drunkard lived again-