20070115
01:34
after work this morning, went for breakfast at harbour front mac with my colleagues. then straight to aze's chalet after tt. took a cab down. blur me walked into costa sands downtiwn east, instead of costa sands pasir ris... wasted 1 dollar.
reach there, quite awkward. he's family's there. no frenz ard like normal chalets... hee. i took a shower, then knocked out liao. damn tired. woken up by the freezing air con at ard 1430hrs. cold in the room, cold outside too. went to downtown east for lunch with aze. back to chalet, stoned, then meff arrived. started watching open season on aze's lappy. followed by some anime and ff7 and some random clips. after aze's family left, we ate the food tt aze had bbqed for dinner, not bad lah the food... coz i dun need to bbq... haha. thanks ah, aze. the day after tomorrow was showing on tv. i knocked out again while watching. woke up at 10pm plus. watched some more vids... then left at ard 12 plus. meff gave me a ride home.
1 day went past juz lke tt. i'm still uncomfortable with my projects left hanging. i missed the first lesson of ds3, which is on tues. [mc on last tues] and now i noe shit bout wats happening. lost also. so lost this term. 1, dunno how to go on, 2, dunno wats going on. doesn't feel right. especially pd2. should i really go for pd 1 instead? i'll be wasting money and time... lots of them, if i go back to pd1... how? told meff bout this... he says juz tahan lor, finish pd2. haiz... i oso wish i can tahan. i shouldn't be giving up so easily... i would have been more willing to push on in the past... y not anymore? is it because something's missing in my life?
a motivation?
something tt can make me sacrifice for?
or should it be a someone?
for me to protect?
a soulmate?
so down... ...
so tired now... ...
-redfox & drunkard lived again-
