redfox and drunkard.

20070630
15:25

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20070629
01:09

preparing for war...

with who?

myself...

for the next 15 mths, i'm gonna work and study... full-time!!! monday work, tuesday study then work, wednesday study, thursday work, friday work, saturday rest... wait long long ah... work, maybe work df at nite oso, at last sunday can rest... but still got assignments to do!!! argh!!! better dun call me up for reservist.

good night earth!

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juz caught transformers at vivo wif jason the transformers siao. great show! and thru out the movie, i was mesmerized by the blue eyes... not prime's! it's fox's... meagan fox...

i think can cook steaks on her abs... sizzling hot...

and she's got nice tattoos...

"we will all laugh at gilded butterflies"

"there once was a girl who never knew love until a boy broke her HEART"

how i wish my vixen's like tt...

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20070626
01:31

another reading of my horoscope... the only incomplete of the 12... i love being the 2 fish...

SUN IN PISCES

You are the most sympathetic and self-sacrificing of souls. You have a good imagination and good receptivity to others. You have a poetic otherworldliness which can come out in some creative or idealistic channel. You have a deep, emotional understanding of others and a real will to serve. You need to be careful that you aren't so suggestible that you fall into self-pitying and avoidance behavior. Try to develop concentration and discipline without losing your easygoing demeanor. Once you are determined to reach a goal, your faith in life, the universe and yourself can give you the strength of character to renounce anything that gets in the way

MERCURY IN PISCES

Your mind is reflective to the point of being chameleon-like. Why? Because you think with your feelings and translate thoughts into something at the core of your being. You don't just imitate, you become. You have an artistic and very attenuated manner of communicating. You have an openness and can incorporate several points of view. You often see the humor in a situation and are good at expressing it. You adjust to changes at a profound level. You only need to be concerned about this if you find yourself becoming confused or lazy. This is the sign that you are repressing your own insights while accepting someone else's. Try to gain a detached look at your own drives when this happens.

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it's raining now. supposed to be a cooling nite, but i feel that the air is full of water vapour. sweating right now, with my fan spinning at top speed. not as condusive as it should have been.

anyway, juz went for supper at 925. long time nv eat lala and sotong there liao. along with damian n jj, i had a filling supper... not so healthy though.. but dun care lah.

in the afternoon, i called up raffles and got to know which class i'll b in. checked my schedule and told my boss. after knowing tt i can carry on working at project solutions, he offered me to stay on as a permanent full time staff, and he offered a pay increment for me too. of course, with greater rewards, along came greater responsibility. but i feel damn lucky and am realli happy that i've got this opportunity to learn and earn.

so with sch and work... how bout df? i really haf no idea. i dun wish to leave tt place. though it has all the reason for me to leave... but there r oso some reasons for me to stay. it's become more of a habit to be working there. and frenz... juz cant bear to leave them. and the regular customers... it's a pleasure to serve them. and the music... i cant think of anywhre else tt spins all genres of party music on one night, tgt with the disturbingly powerful strobe light. welcome to dragonfly.

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20070625
00:12

land and water saga is over... fox has understood the fact tt butterfly needs nectar. and a fox should look for a vixen... muahahaha~

last week had been drinking almost everyday... even when working at df... scary. requested not to work on sat, and decided to party. went to dbl o wif black and ying fu. i can say it's one of the most enjoyable party session i had. but gotta say o bar's air-con is fucked up. damn hot. dance till i sweat as if i've completed a 2.4km run. but still fun lah. loved it when i requested tokyo drift fr the dj. he smiled and agreed to my dedication, and he began a series of my fav beats. zookey, calabria... and i forgot the rest.

i end up to be the most sober... i i'm not as crazy as my other 2 brothers, drinking neat. i nv ever wanna puke again. overall a fun nite.

school starting on 2nd july. decided to stop working at df for the mth of july. but i doubt i can get used to not working on fri n sat nites. the thot of studies juz bring down my energy level and morale. sian... bound to haf sleepless nites again.

had been working on my marathon training. ran ard 8km on a lazy sunday evening. marathon anyone??? damian had made up his mind to join me since last yr when we met up after my 42.195km. our 1st barrier: mizuno wave run. up next will be the army half marathon. finale: standard chartered singapore marathon. look forward to the adrenaline rush... getting high on running... the runners' high.

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20070620
20:56

water crashed... and left land in peace...

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20070619
23:08

i had 7 hrs of sleep... in 2 days.

sunday went ktv wif meiting, and one of mono's staff. met my df colleagues at cine. bird n woei. so sang tgt. great nite wif some booze. jj picked the 2 of us up for supper wif black. suppered opp bukit timah s.c.. so in the end i had 4 hrs of sleep.

monday was a sleepy day in office. longed so much to hit my bed. but when i reach home... full-of-shit evan called to ask me out for drink. i was vv reluctant to go, i wished i had knocked out before he called again. but under peer pressure, i weakened. head down to boat quay, met up wif francis. then along came ho s.k and ah cai. sing sing drink drink eat eat joke joke. wasted 4 hrs of sleep. i rewarded myself with 3 hrs of sleep.

lucky i got an alarm clock called jess. thanks ah~ i carried on the rest of my day like a zombie. planned to go home straight after work and meet uncle chou, but ash said 10 wanna meet up for dinner. i crumble under peer pressure again... weakling~

so now i am finally home. gonna haf an early appointment wif uncle chou.

it might be the sleepless nites tt caused my lack of concentration at work, but i knew there was something bothering me deep down. something tt left me confused. or am i juz too dumb to see the answer? or was it really a mystery? wat happened 4 nites ago was like a dream. a sweet one.
for almost a year, i nv had someone whom i really wanted to be in my arms, to be in my arms.
and why would i get this sweet dream when land's avoiding flood? water's confused... going round n round like a whirlpool.

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20070613
02:23

i did 3km yesterday. i juz did 6km... went for a midnight run. felt so gao wei. it's either drink til i drunk or jog till i shag. i chose the latter.

why run? i like the breeze coming upon my face when cutting through the air. i like the sweat that drip like i'm drench in the rain. i like the soreness i feel in my muscle tt makes me feel alive. i like the adrenaline rush that comes through, telling me nv to stop but to go faster and faster. i like those eyes on me when i pass them. i like running... especially when there's a problem. you can run away from it, and run in search for a solution.

but this run did not take me further away from my problem, neither did it bring me a solution. coz my decision really doesn't matter... one of the few times in life when i dun feel like changing my decision in order to solve the problem. stubborn? i just tink it's like the koi which tried swimming up stream with the dragon gate in mind.

when was the last time i missed some one? during jcc i really missed my family. that's still the extreme case of home sickness. besides that, when you are living in the comfort of all luxuries, there is this somebody that i'm missing. hope insanity hasn't taken over me by chance.

i'm sleeping later and later, day after day. and little red mounds are residing on my once so flawless cheeks.

i foresee muscle ache, sleepiness, and that not so sane feeling. zouk tml!!! i'm gonna get exhausted.

nitey earth~

water still doesn't know how to flood land. should water flow with aggression? or should it wait for the ice from the poles to melt? or shall water wait for land to crumble to the sea?

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20070612
00:20

supposed to be sleeping liao... but sis came in to complain. bout her work lor... haha. feel so funny talking bout her when she's in front of me... muahaha~ ok now she's gone. =p

the whole day at work i was straining my eyes... think i need a pair of glasses. stil cant remember where i put my old specs. sian~ concussed in the train back home. then went for a 3km jog. stepping out to the marathon. then back home haf dinner. at first planned to slp at 11 plus. but then online quite addictive ah. then at 12 my sis came in to tok cock. most of the time complaining bout her work stuff. then sent her my currently fav song... wo ke yi by cai ming you. tt song juz reminds me of some sweet moment by the river:)

tink i should go sleep le... always sleep so late. getting skinnier liao. and pimple r still not gg away... if they become permanent resident then i die liao, no ger wan liao:(

nitey earth!

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20070610
23:58

recently lost a few things tt dun really need but actually important in my daily life.

1. my specs. dunno where i put them leh. though i can see, but it's still straining to look at the big big lcd monitor 8 hrs a day, 5 days a week.

2. my shiny ear stud. birthday prezzie fr jj n meiting. shit lah. last place i remember placing it is on my lappy. dunno go where liao... hope can find it back lah.

3. the function of my hp's micro sd card. sianz... cant store songs in my hp liao. so had being using the famous nokia ringtone and the old skool ringing tone (ring~ ring~)

4. motivation to tidy up my room. my room's like a storeroom now. tt's all i can say.

5. the ability to sleep early. for lst week, the earliest i slept is 1am.

6. the ability to keep awake and alert for 8 hrs. dun tink i ever possessed such ability too. but hope i can haf it lah... muahaha~~~

7. sales in df. number of martell n hennessy bottles i open is dropping. so do sai kang to keep myself active. and dance!!!

8. my goal of riding a vespa. i've not been gg for bikey lessons!!! argh!!! muz go back ok... i wan my vespa!!!

9. my goal of completing 42.195km in 4hrs. can be done... but no discipline lah.

10. my love. is it? did i? have i? will i?

find 'em back.

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20070606
22:26

ever tried liking someone but doesn't noe how to speak ur heart. it's a lot more difficult than picking up gers at club. it juz seem so not right to express urself. keeping it the way it is seemed to be the best way out... or is it juz avoidance? getting rejected when u try picking up some chick doesn't gif u much cosequences to face. but telling a good friend tt u bear special fondness for him or her juz makes it much more complicated.

wat do u see in a ger?

i see if i can look at her till the age of 80 and still dun get sick of her. i see if she's worth taken care of when she's handicapped, old, sick, ugly. i see us lying on the beach seeing stars, drinking wine, talking bout wat we wanna do for our future, and concuss in a dome tent. i see us hiking in nepal, watching the himalayas while we spend our nights in the arms of mother nature. i see us partying in ibiza, dancing till we dehydrate, drink till we can hibernate.

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20070604
00:18

actually vv lazy to describe wat gg on in life. everyday seemed like a routine. work... and always wanted to doze off. then after werk will go out wif either jj n black... or drinking session w df colleagues.

went to 97 on thurs nite. a canto pop discoteque. think workng at df really changes my likes. nv thot i'd like canto. the concept is similar to df. we got a ktv room. sang, then when we got sick of singing, go outside and enjoy music. their performances were similar to df, but with no live band backing the singers, no dancers, no choreographed performences. but their singers can sing quite well. the dj spin techno!!! tink i'm gg back to my roots. techno! beng sial...

i end up having 2 hrs + of sleep and went to work in the morning, then continued my work at df at 10pm. took a nap on the nel again. fr outram - harbour front - punggol - harbour front. tired sial.

and today i got my new toy... ipod 30gb!!! muahaha... gonna spend some time converting all my cds into it.

juz came back fr ktv session wif aze and the bellini peeps. nv sing a lot... juz chilled.

ok... gotta sleep. hope i can get back a normal weekdays lifestyle again... no more late nights... coz training for standard chartered 07 starts tml.

impossible is temporary.

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